Thankful~

I am feeling really thankful today! Thankful for Joel, my kids, my family, my friends, my church, my house, my job, my education process, my blueberries, my (food) choices, and the opportunities I have to grow.  Just really thankful!

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Rachel~

Happy Birthday my sweet little girl.  You are 5!  I love you!

The decision was made~

We are honored to announce the decision made by the committee to become Rachel’s forever parents!  We were strangely calm considering the events taking place this morning, however, we are overcome with joy and thankfulness that our God was and is in control. Over the next few months we will work with the courts to legalize this decision.

Today is the day~

It is 11:15, no word yet~

The count down is on~

Thursday is the day we are picked formally as forever parents for Rachel.  We will be presented to a committee along with two other families.  They will pick the family they think is best fitted for her.  I am OK considering the possibilities.  I am confident my God is in control.  I am ignoring the reality of the day for the moment.  I should know by noon on Thursday of their decision.  In the event we are not chosen we will have one week to make the transition.  The two other families have never met Rachel.  They picked her out of a kind of line up of pictures and know only what DHS told them.

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Momma Sam

As I stood face to face with her I wondered what she thought of me. I was ashamed I hadn’t done my hair or put makeup on. Would I be good enough to raise you? Did I look kind? Could she see the love I felt for her? Then I thought how she felt. Was I better than she? Such an odd encounter. There I stood face to face with the woman who loved you enough to want more for you. A woman brave enough to acknowledge her inability to parent you,yet she loved you enough to place you in my care. Her eyes flooded as she learned of me. I reached out and touched her hand. That wasn’t enough. Are there rules for such encounters? What words should one speak? There we stood alone in the silence of the situation. I asked to hug her. I wanted her to know I loved her. I wanted her to know how brave she was, how selfless she was. Her face lit as she mentioned your name. She wanted me to know all she had done for you, she wanted you know she tried. She wanted you to know she loved you enough to want more. She wanted you to know of her love for you.