I ran close to 30 miles this week, not to mention the countless walks while in Sunriver…. I should be rail thin…..sadly I am not. In fact my great plan to lose 14 more pounds has somehow been shattered as I have gained 6. I am re-focused. Making healthy choices one minute at a time.
Somewhere in the midst of boxes, dust, and high levels of stress you will find me wishing I could just curl up and sleep. I found myself thinking how dayquil just isn’t like it used to be ( I think I have only used once or twice). In a nut shell I feel crummy, my house is a total wreck, I need to work and I have a “to do” list the size of King Kong! Off to bed I will go.
My sister told me recently that I was turning into a food snob. Since I already tend to be a snob, or so I’ve been told, I figured I would run with it. My love for all things organic continues. I found Wal-Mart, aka the Great Mart, has increased its organic products. Which is great for me because grocery days tend to be running from one store to the next just to find the items. I mentioned earlier a local discount grocery store carries a lot of organic, unfortunately they don’t always have the same items. So it tends to be hit or miss. I have found great cookies, granola bars, chips, and soups, not to mention my favorite Mrs. Meyers items there. My new favorite cookies, besides my own, is from Country Choice. Their site even gives you great organic recipes. Check it out!
What I am most excited about is my current find from the Great Mart. It is Amy’s organic refried black beans. The best thing is that they are not that much more than your basic can. They are SO delicious. I wake up thinking how soon until lunch, or is refried beans considered a breakfast food? They even get Joel and Elijah’s approval. I made tacos with them for the boys, (Gaige doesn’t like any food so his vote doesn’t count.) and I had them plain with small dollop of sour cream and salsa. So good.
I am currently on the hunt for organic whole wheat pasta. I am going to convert all our pasta to whole wheat. Also you should check out organic ketchup. If you love ketchup you must go organic to get the flavor.
Here is the last few weeks in a nutshell;
Nephew, really sick.
Sister, sick, twice.
Grandma, Heart attack scare sprinkled with social services.
Other sister tells us of her upcoming move & no Christmas together.
Nephews sick again.
My boys, sick.
Joel’s Nam’s (grandma) house was flooded
Elijah now with pinkeye!
and a few more I won’t mention…
I WILL, I WILL rejoice and be glad! (no matter what!)
There is a fine line in exposing too much, really a fear. Please love me in spite of the good and the bad.
A few months ago I tried my hand at making my very first homemade cheese cake. To my surprise it was easy to make and mighty tasty. Over the follow 3 days I proceeded to gorge myself on that delicious cheesecake. Why am I telling you this you might ask. Well I started a new “diet” nearly 3 weeks ago and I so cleverly named it, “Don’t eat a whole cheesecake in (less than) 3 days by yourself” During the last 3 weeks I enjoyed 2 Thanksgiving dinners and I have made 2 more cheesecakes. Carmel pecan cheesecakes to be exact. This year I have had a lot to be thankful for and one of the things I am thankful for is I had the pleasure of making those cheesecakes for my loved ones to enjoy and that I didn’t have one bite. I never quite understood the way my mom always enjoyed cooking/baking. She seemed to enjoy our enjoyment of the food more than preparing the food. I can now understand. To see my family enjoy something I made for them was very rewarding. Tonight I am up preparing yet another cheesecake.(yep its 1am) This time it is a pumpkin pecan cheesecake. I am making this wonderful treat for my coworkers as a celebration of my new position that will allow me to work solely from home.
I am confident in my latest temptation. You see back in the first week of November I had a revelation that I was still bound by my ongoing weigh/body issues. Sadly, I have struggled with body issue for as long as I can remember. I have cried out for years for freedom in this area of my life. During that 1st week of the 11th month I could feel myself slipping into a dark season I unfortunately knew all too well. For me it has been a viscous cycle. Change even though needed has at times seemed too overwhelming and required more than I was willing to give. I have laid down this issue more times I can count yet I somehow always seem to find myself back in the of throws of the lies before I even realize. I have read countless Godly self help books on how to be free. I have sought Godly counsel yet I keep getting in the way. Unless you have felt this lie alive and active in your life it is hard to understand (I pray that you never will know the pain this lie causes). The lie tends to infiltrate every area of my life. The depths of my struggles are hard to convey and all together to hard to admit. It seems like a no brainer, no biggie but sadly I have bought it. The lie in a nut shell; my self worth is directly related to the size, shape of my body.
On November 14 at 2pm I committed to change,
One day at a time.
I am always amazed at how fragile life is. We heard this morning my Grandma was admitted to the hospital after having a heart attack (they think) with many other ( I am unsure of the depths) complications. I have been listening to Here by Kate White. The song talks of how life can simply be overwhelming, and how its hard to see what God sees. I love the way the song puts to music so beautifully how I feel. So Heavenly Father I ask that your Holy Spirit would flood my family and your peace would be made known in our lives. Spirit come and comfort Grandma and Joe.
As most, ok maybe just some, of you know my nephew is sick and was transported up to one of the major hospitals in Portland. Well, we still don’t know much and to be quite honest I am too tired to blog about what I do know. So maybe tomorrow I will give you an update. As for now please keep praying for him.